Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Wishing



Wishing…

  • February 22nd, 2013
I spend my days in isolation longing for things that are just not a reality in my world. I wish I could happen upon a playmate to fill my time. A strong, dominant man who understood my situation, who respected my real life limitations but who would take from me when time permitted. Someone who would take the time to understand my needs, who would thrill in pushing my limits and pulling from my defiant depths the submissive slumbering fitfully in my soul. A firm Master who would see through my bullshit and call me out on it, punish me for it when needed. A creative, sadistic soul who would delight in finding ways over the miles to create a headspace that could never be denied Him. Someone who thrilled in owning me as much I would thrill at belonging to Him.
I miss serving, I miss being instructed, praised, tasked. I miss the strength of a man who wouldn’t allow me to win when I am feisty. A man who doesn’t let my brat run the show. I miss having a powerful Dom in my life.
Perhaps one day He will stride purposefully and powerfully into my life and reaching for me, with full confidence of my servitude, find me ready to fall at His feet.
Perhaps… someday…

A Burning Need



A Burning Need

  • April 3rd, 2012
I need a Master. I need someone to take the reigns of my pleasure and control me. I don’t need to be told how to live my life. I don’t need direction on the mundane details of my day to day, but my pleasure is a whole other story. I need to be told, when, how, with what and how many. I need to be told no, to be told to find the edge and stop. I need to beg for more, beg for less, beg for permission. I need to feel owned, captivated, controlled. To know that a man worthy of my respect and submission believes I am worthy of his controlling and careful Domination. I need to know that no matter how I beg that I will be pushed and pushed hard. My begging for mercy will never ever give Him pause. I need to know that He will not stop until He is ready to and not a moment before. That he will see past his care for me and push me to new depths.

100 Ways to Feel Owned



I found this on another site and loved it, so I am sharing it with all out there.

I can’t put them anywhere associated with myself b/c they will raise too many questions and leave me frustrated. But here others can enjoy them without that. I went through the list for fun and marked how I felt about each one. Maybe one day, there will be someone to read through them, making mental notes to better prepare Him to know me.

One of the main factors, in feeling truly OWNED is to be constantly reminded throughout the day of a Master’s control. These reminders can be subtle or really obtrusive. The more often a slave is reminded of her submission, the deeper it becomes — and the more fulfilling. So here are some ideas you might want to try, and no matter what rules you decide to make your own, please be consistent. If you are unwilling to take the time to enforce the rules you make, then there may as well be no rules at all. There is nothing in the world that will make a slave feel less loved than to have a Master who ignores her transgressions and does not exert their dominance.

(love) 1. Have her wear slave bells. The constant soft jingling of the bells is soothing and a certain reminder of her submission.

(mixed feelings) 2. When she has broken a rule, talk to her as you punish and make her speak in detail about why what she did was wrong.

(love) 3. Make her take her shoes off every day as soon as she enters your house.

(love) 4. A beautiful, special collar will make any slave joyous. Take the time to select the right one, and have her wear it as often as possible.

(love) 5. Have her call you each day at a specified time, no excuses.

(love) 6. Give her anklets and tell her she must wear one of them every day, no excuses.

(mixed feelings) 7. Whenever possible, have her kneel before you and ask to accompany you upon the furniture.

(not so much) 8. Choose her hairstyle and go with her to get it cut to your specifications.

(curious) 9. Whenever possible, have her display herself whenever you come into the room — legs spread, shirt unbuttoned. No matter what position you take, she is to be sure your view is unobstructed

(love) 10. When around the kids or vanilla friends/family, make sure she has an alternative title for you besides Master, such as “my love” etc.

(curious) 11. Use her sexually in a rough, selfish way when you feel like it, interrupting whatever she was doing.

(mixed feelings) 12. Choose a food that she dislikes and have her eat a small portion every day for a week.

(mixed feelings) 13. Have her crawl to bed each night.

(indifferent) 14. Bring her a stuffed animal each time you go out of town.

(mixed feelings) 15. Choose her clothing each day.

(mixed feelings) 16. Have her get your daily wardrobe ready for you the night before.

(love) 17. After punishment, have her kiss your boots and thank you for loving her enough to correct her.

(love) 18. Have her bring a warm towel and wash and massage Your feet each day after work.

(love) 19. Get her tattooed (Your choice of art and location).

(curious) 20. Get her pierced (or preferably if You are trained, do it Yourself).

(not so much) 21. Get her branded.

(love) 22. Respect, but push her limits.

(mixed feelings) 23. Ask her each night what she did that day that You would not have approved of. This gets her in the habit of being completely honest, and also makes her conscious of the things she could do better each day.

(love) 24. Teach her exactly how You want her to kneel, and demand perfection.

(love) 25. Reward her by allowing her to please You sexually.

(not so much) 26. Supervise her workout routine.

(mixed feelings) 27. Each night she is to kneel next to the bed asking permission to sleep with her Master, and each night she does, she is to kneel by the bed in the morning and thank her Master for the privilege.

(love) 28. Have her polish Your boots weekly, on her knees at Your feet.

(mixed feelings) 29. Negotiate until you are both comfortable with the terms and then sign a contract.

(love) 30. Give her a writing assignment: “The definition of Pain – 1000 words”

(love) 31. Have her keep a diary of her journey into submission.

(mixed feelings) 32. Instruct her that she may never get herself something to eat or drink in Your presence without first asking You if You want something.

(curious) 33. Some evenings, keep her on a leash and take her with You no matter what You do….even if You do not speak to her or include her in Your activities.

(curious) 34. When appropriate, she is to speak when spoken to.

(love) 35. Reward her by giving her delicious pleasure.

(love) 36. On occasion, share her.

(love) 37. When it suits You, instruct her not to make eye contact with You without Your command.

(mixed feelings) 38. Have her keep her body clean shaven at all times.

(mixed feelings) 39. Conduct random inspections of her body to make sure she keeps herself to Your specifications.

(love) 40. Make her wear a butt-plug under her clothes whenever she goes out alone.

(love) 41. For transgressions: have her write Your name on the bottom of her foot and tell her to remember she is walking on You with each step. (This is harder to do that You might think.)

(super love) 42. Master the art of the meaningful piercing stare.

(love) 43. Give her reading assignments.

(super love) 44. Test her on the reading assignments, to make sure she learned the appropriate lessons from each.

(love) 45. Instruct her to keep her toenails painted perfectly everyday, and check to see that they are before bed

(curious) 46. Make it her responsibility to put the toys away after play and punishment, and to keep them clean and neat.

(love) 47. Reward her by letting her name her favorite scene, toys, etc.

(love) 48. Call her your slut, your pet, etc.

(mixed feelings) 49. Have her make a list of the 10 things that make her the most self-conscious, uncomfortable or embarrassed.

(mixed feelings) 50. Work with her, having her do the things on the list, so that she conquers those fears and hesitations.

(super love) 51. Sometimes, pamper her — wash her body and hair, having her remain perfectly still as you turn her and move her about.

(love) 52. Hand feed her like a small child on occasion.

(not so much) 53. Have her eat from a dog bowl on occasion.

(love) 54. For transgressions: make her wear a sign to the next public function naming her crime.

(love) 55. Praise her dedication when she has pleased you well.

(oh hell… love) 56. Instruct her that she is never to touch your body without permission.

(curious) 57. Have her write a meditation about her submission, devotion and trust in you, to be said aloud each night before falling asleep.

(curious) 58. Some days allow her no clothing whatsoever.

(love… in a sick twisted way) 59. For transgressions: deny her play.

(love… in a sick twisted way) 60. In the same ilk, For transgressions: deny her orgasm. Give her sex, but she can’t cum.

(love… i think) 61. For transgressions: Command that she is to be silent for a week.She may not speak, and will take whatever pain or pleasure you give as silently as possible.

(love secretly) 62. Treat her like a pet in front of friends, making her present herself, turn herself, etc.

(love) 63. Give her a writing assignment: “The definition of Obedience – 1000 words”

(curious) 64. Have her wear nipple clamps all day.

(love) 65. Tell her one morning that she must cum for you 15 times that day, and then write about the day.

(love) 66. Have her wear a butt plug under her clothing out to dinner.

(super love) 67. On your birthday, let her receive your spankings.

(love) 68. Spend time training her how to move to please You.

(mixed feelings) 69. For transgressions: stand her in the corner like a 3 year old.

(mixed feelings) 70. Always flog her after completion of a task, even if it was satisfactory. A well flogged slave is a happy slave.

(not so much) 71. Speak about her as if she were not present.

(ohhhh noooooo) 72. For transgressions: deny her any D/s at all for a week, letting her do just as she pleases, not allowing her to serve you in any way, no punishment, no instruction, no play, banning titles of respect, etc. This will shame her and certainly make her strive to please you when it is over and she is in her place again.

(love) 73. Defend her honor to those who would disrespect your prized possession.

(super love) 74. Pet her often.

(super love)75. Make her be webmaster for your site

(mixed feelings) 76. Whenever possible, have her sleep in a cage.

(love) 77. Buy her sexy or slutty clothes to your liking.

(love) 78. Teach her things, expand her knowledge, in a patient daddy way.

(super love) 79. When you are apart, call her and have her masturbate for you.

(love) 80. If you choose to play with others, make sure your slave knows who is first in your heart and that some things are just for her.

(super love) 81. Lead her with a loving fist in her hair.

(love) 82. Wake her each morning with an assigned task for the day and make sure it is done by day’s end.

(not so much) 83. Teach her patience.

(nope) 84. Videotape your sessions and watch them together.

(curious) 85. Have her place her regular wear shoes in a line by the front door. They should be in a straight line with the laces tucked inside. Inspect them periodically.

(yikes…. ummm i mean, love… in the sick twisted way) 86. Keep a list of her transgressions in a little book. Let her slip for a while thinking you are not noticing. Then one day, bring out the book and have a day of atonement.

(love) 87. Tickle her just because you can.

(love) 88. Have her be perfectly still and quiet while you bring her extreme pleasure. When she moves or makes a sound punish her then return to the pleasure.

(mixed feelings) 89. Keep her locked in her collar when you are home. Wear the key to the lock around your neck.

(mixed feelings) 90. When possible, have her cook and serve your dinner wearing nothing but a collar.

(love) 91. Buy her a digital camera and give her assignments to take pictures of herself for you in certain outfits or positions, etc.

(love) 92. Don’t be afraid to bring her to tears, for they are yours as well.

(not so much) 93. Take her and the dog to the park, both on leashes.

(mixed feelings) 94. Have her fall asleep between your legs, licking your cock and balls, and tell her you expect her to be there when you awake.

(love) 95. Occasionally, fulfill her fantasy.

(mixed feelings) 96. Master’s word is the last word.

(fucking SUPER love x a bazillion) 97. Be consistent.

(super love) 98. Take the time to talk to her, learn her fears, her dreams and fantasies. Use your knowledge.

(love) 99. Specify exactly how she will address you in private and in public.

(not so much) 100. If you are willing to correct her each time she forgets until it is a habit, have her refer to herself as “this slave”